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Finally, after five months of absence, here I am again, writing something out of nothing… Well, not exactly of nothing… Anyone of you who still remembers the thing I wrote here a few months back that I wanted to write a book about me, the thing is, I really haven’t done much yet… I’m not exactly sure what or why, but I can’t seem to come up with good things to write about, and I couldn’t get any drive to do it…
Para akong bigla na lang nawalan ng gana para lumikha ng kung anong istorya na pwede ko i-angkop sa mga bagay sa buhay ko at buhay ng ibang tao na pwede ko rin itulad sa buhay ko… huh? Anyway, I suddenly found it hard to write, even though the pen and paper is just placed where I could easily reach them. Hindi ko alam kung kulang lang ako sa inspirasyon, o kung wala na lang talaga nagtutulak sa akin para gumawa ng isang bagay na tulad ng libro. That even though the urge is still there, it’s just isn’t enough to make me make something. Siguro dahil na rin sa mga anxieties ko na baka walang magka-interes na magbasa ng gagawin ko because basically, and quite honestly, I don’t have that big of a network of people, and nobody would really give a damn about me, my past experiences and who I am in the present except for all of those people who really care, and I’m not even sure if they would really want to know it…
Sigurado ko lang na bibili mga limang katao, kasama pa ako dun! I guess what I really need right now is some confidence that if I do this, I’m not just wasting my time and effort to do such… that I’m actually doing something productive and beneficial to both my readers and me. And maybe by then, I’d be able to get some drive back in to my system, and finish what I’ve started so far, which is basically not that much… Saka iniisip ko lang din kasi, mostly ng maisusulat ko rin kasi dun ay tungkol lang din sa mga sentiments ko sa sablay kong love life. Just please, anyone who gets to read this, please give me something to think about because again, as I’ve asked you guys before… OPINYON MO ANG KAILANGAN KO…
