Damage Control
For those peepz who don’t know yet, I finally have something I could call a job! Finally, after almost four months of agonizing waiting, I, at last, got lucky got lucky to have found one… I want to say I am glad because I really am but the thing is, there are also a lot of pending dilemmas I will have to face before I could say I’m back in the game… In the long span of jobless weeks, I also had a lot to sacrifice… because within those times, I wasn’t able to pay my debts and in some occasions, I had to borrow money just to pay for another freakin’ obligation! Something that no one could refer to as healthy… But at least now I already have my new source… I just have to plan how to efficiently execute my act of damage control…No fun yet, eating to anywhere I desire, going to places I used to go, buying stuff I want to buy and all that jazz… Seize them all for the moment until I reach my personal nirvana… Just plain damage control, then hopefully get luckier to fully remove all quandary…
Even so, I still am very thankful of what is given to me… It’s a removal of high anxieties and sweeping off of mischievous distress in my head and chest… It’s like getting replanted after violently getting uprooted from my foundation… I also got to be thankful to all those people who stood beside me and gave muck lovin’ and support, even though I lament most of the time when they give me words of encouragement… Thank these people for understanding and believing in me when I don’t want to believe anymore… Accompany me with my madness and my urge to make fantasy a reality… You guys know who you are…
Finally, I can’t think of any other song that would best describe what I’m currently in so I decided to just use this one… A song made famous by Staind back in 2004…
"It’s Been A While"
And it’s been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it’s been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it’s been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it’s been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I can’t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I’ve rendered
I’ve stretched myself beyond my means
And it’s been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn’t addicted
And it’s been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it’s been awhile
Since I’ve gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it’s been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I’m with you
And everything I can’t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I’ve rendered
I’ve gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!
And it’s been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it’s been awhile
Since I said I’m sorry
And it’s been awhile
Since I’ve seen the way the candles light your face
And it’s been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
And everything I can’t remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it’s me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it’s been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it’s been awhile
Since I said I’m sorry
One With The Cosmos
OK… I don’t know how I would describe this because for one thing, it’s been the first time I ever saw one… I think I just saw a comet,
or for some, a shooting star! I never saw one yet until just a few minutes ago so I’m not sure if it really was a comet… It flew across the sky too fast to really see it without leaving any trace, and it came from absolutely nowhere! Anyway, real or not, I did make a wish… and that is of course stop this ongoing madness that has been haunting me for months! Well, at least the first thing that came in to my mind… the others were to have a girlfriend, to personally know Jasmine Trias, 
to become a famous star, and anything else in between, or whatever that means…
Hopefully that was the sign I’ve been asking the Great Being 
above for a long time… To tell you guys honestly, I haven’t been to church in a long time (but I pray every now and then), and I just attended a mass earlier today… It was also the first time in months that I prayed a long one… just asked him to help me lift up my burdens 
and apologized for the dumb things I’ve been saying against him and his will. Yup! I do that sometimes, especially when I’m feeling frustrated and frantic. I also gave thanks for the things that are still with me and good things that are coming to me… and prayed 
for all the people that I know and know me… Anyway, I don’t want to sound like a preacher or somewhat like a devotee of some sort of religious organization… Just a little sharing I guess… Going back to what I was saying, I was asking him for a sign. After attending the mass, the first thing I noticed was the moon…
I haven’t seen it in long time as well, which by the way I am always fascinated of… (Maybe I’m a werewolf or something…)
So there I was, looking at my beautiful moon, 
while she looked back at me with her wonderful smile (it’s almost a full moon). I thought that was a good start for a symbol of good things to come… then just earlier I saw another sign… So hopefully I’d get my yearnings come true as soon as possible…
Something Out of Boredom
Unlike my past blog posts where I deeply involve emotions and all that jazz, this time, it’s different… You see, this is one of those days where I just can’t think of anything to do or my favorite websites just have nothing new to show… I thought I’d work up my writer’s drive and basically write anything under the sun…
First thing that came in to my mind, is to talk about professional wrestling… Something I have always wanted, and probably something I will always want… today is a 
WWE marathon day for me… started up with a WWE show, checked the WWE website, and then watched some more… For those wrestling fans out there who would hopefully read this one, I’ll be giving some thoughts about what is currently happening in the sport that I loved ever since… Starting with 
DX… YUP! They are finally back! And they are back with a Vengeance (incidentally, the team of 
HBK and 
Triple H would first team up on this very PPV show). I think their decision of bringing the group back is great! Seeing that they made another competition within the company 
ECW, they had to think of something so that fans of WWE won’t jump off the wagon and completely join the new one… At least, fans would have reason to stay with the product… with the championship title being “re-christened” and top superstars like 
John Cena and 
Edge being hooked up with the new brand, they really had to make a hullabaloo on the other side… But for those who don’t know, there were actually insider news reported that Shawn Michaels wasn’t exactly excited with things happening with the group… reports say 
HBK doesn’t like the idea of doing the same old tricks that he had way back in the late 90’s since those things are apparently against the teachings of Born Again Christians, but is being perfectly professional about it for the success of the storyline… Another thing by the way, our fellow Filipino wrestler Dave Bautista aka 
Batista is coming back in a few days… I got no news yet about his latest storyline but for sure he’ll be back on 
SmackDown and raise some hell! And if you don’t know it yet, they’ll be back for a 
Survivor Series Tour this October, probably the first time that 
Batista would be able to step in his home away from home!
There are lots of other stuff I could talk about WWE and wrestling but I won’t be continuing with it because I might bore all my readers (that is if I even have one)… Next on the list is 
Manny Pacquiao… I mean the guy is unstoppable! Sure it may have taken him twelve rounds to finish the fight, but his opponent went down twice on the mat! If Larios claims that the win was a fluke, then he’s talking bull crap… and other than his win, I’m not sure but I think all under card bouts were also won by our countrymen. So it’s not only Manny Pacquiao day, but also for the whole boxing world in the Philippines and of course for the whole country Next stop for Pacquiao by the way is his rubber match between him and Morales… 
where they would finally show the world who’s the better man. And hopefully Pacquiao wins that one as well (DUH!)
Anyway, I seem to be sounding like a sport analyst here, something I’m obviously not… So going back to reality… tomorrow is a good day for me (Finally something about me!) I have an orientation for an advertising company for a management trainee position… Hopefully this one would finally fit for me… I was told that the work would involve lots of leg work, something I haven’t done since college when I was very much active and heavily involved in school organization activities… Something I really missed doing and never done when I was in my past work where I just sit and speak for a whole 9hours, making my butt bigger than my seat and my throat soar like there’s no tomorrow… Not to mention the time of the work! And as my blog says, Hopefully I’m on my way back up!
