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This might be already obvious to some people that sees me on a normal basis, but something major is happening to me these past few days… What I was in the past had actually, slowly dissappearing with reason I’m not ready to handle… In a very short period of time, life have been a lot different to me… I’m not sure if it’s healthy or not but that reason gives me inspiration as well as downfall. I’m currently elated in my own world of illusion where nobody can take grasp of my being, and nobody can ride the wind that I’m creating. I’m embracing the rays of the sun in a different manner, so different that I’m sure everyone will never understand but me. And even up to the point where I want to make my fantasy come to life, or at least get stuck in it for as long as I linger my life in this world. I’m trying to get out but also keeping myself in it and totally enclose it in my humanity and never let it slip away from my hands… I’d like to think that the song I’m currently dancing to was created and intended for me, but the bitter reality is, it’s almost impossible to happen and nobody has control of it but the being that holds it. I’m starting to lose control and want to keep myself locked from all other things in the real world, and rather insert myself in a different dimesion than without that reason in mine. It’s silly of me to think of these things while other more complicated things are actually happening around me… I guess those are also factors why I don’t want to leave my delusion. I’m inside my sanity outside insanity, and with all these paradox fluxxing my soul in between a flaming wall of brimstone and a thousand petals of flowers strewn across a satin sheet, I’d like to think that I’ll never see heaven in anyone else’s dream, no matter how great it might be. All that is in my mind now and I’m striving hard to take place is that I just Have To Know if that fantasy is within my reach, or will it forever be light years away from me…
